A Gamer's View #5 "Thoughts"

I will be completey honsest with you all. I have been doing a lot of thinking. Mostly about the cowards way out. I havn't been happy in a long time. and every time i htink i can't get any lower. i sink a little more. I don't want to hurt the ones i care about. my friends my mother....but i feel like in the long run that me being around will only hurt htem more then one sudden stab of pain so to speak of my "disappearing". As i type this i am shakeing worse then a small dog on a coffee bender...I can't take this much longer. Granted i made some great friends on XBL latey. hell even a few of htem i care alot about. but i can't do tihs anymore. im tired of lieing to everyone and telling htem in fine. Im not. Its alot worse then anyone knows. Im sorry everyone.........